People think being alone makes you lonely
But that's not true
Being surrounded by the wrong people is the loneliest thing in the world.
Did she make your heartbeat faster than I could?
Did she give you what you hoped for?
Nights of loveless love,
I hope it made you feel good,
Knowing how much I adored you
p/s: takdak kena mengena dengan yg hidup ataupun yg mati :D
Denganmu, aku belajar untuk menghargai kehadiran seseorang.
Tanpamu, aku belajar untuk mencintai kesendirianku.
Thanks for the lessons.
Johor, 11.49pm
Hai salam ramadhan strangers :)
Hati aku start runsing, ayah dah banyak lost weight.
Aku takut. Risau.
Dan aku cuba untuk tak nak fikir.
Zaman degree dulu, bila ayah Hani mula dipanggil tuhan, aku ada terfikir mampu ke aku hadap benda yang sama nanti?
Zaman tu memang ramai kawan aku yang hilang ayah.
Bila aku dengar ayah orang lain sakit aku rasa macam alhamdulillah ayah aku okay-okay je.
Tapi sekarang.. :(
Aku tak tau apa yang aku boleh buat untuk ayah jadi okay balik.
Ayah dah tak kuat untuk puasa, kalau dia mampu dia akan teruskan puasa.
Susah untuk tidur. Selalu sesak nafas.
Aku just boleh belikan apa yang dia teringin, apa yang baik untuk kesihatan dia.
Umi yang selalu urut kalau ayah tak boleh tidur :(
Aku cuba ringankan beban rumah. Barang dapur, kerja rumah, masak.
Aku try contribute dengan cara tu.
Ya Allah. Kuatkan aku. Yakinkan aku yang semua ni sementara je.
Yakinkan aku yang everything will be fine soon.
*tears*
Ayah, please kuat :(
Lately ni aku start mimpi childhood memories.
Macam pita rakaman.
Aku mimpi ayah bawak aku naik motor, nak pegi makan ABC :')
Pastu ayah sabar je tanya nak makan apa, nak kacang tak, nak itu tak, nak ini tak.
Dah naik motor tu aku tanya itu ini dan dia sabar je jawab :(
Ya Allah, ada ke lelaki yang sabar camni, yang boleh hadap karenah budak-budak aku selain ayah? :'(
Aku takut. Dan tak kuat. Dan aku tak tau nak buat ape.
I think we were moving too fast
Somehow I feel that it is all sudden and feel rush
I can’t even match my steps with your pace
But we were having our own fun and appreciating each other’s company
At first I didn't notice anything special about you
just a normal person with a normal behavior
I'm not aware of you 'cause you are so ordinary
or I'm the one who is too blind ?
When I talk to you, getting know more about you, it makes me realize that
somehow you are different
You are perfect with your imperfections
And I saw beauty in your darkness
You taught me how to care--
Make me feel that I want to pet you badly
You taught me how to be patient--
I will remember the way that you are trying to make things easier for the grumpy me
I know it is not easy for you to handle my unnecessary grumbles and chaotic mind
Oh boy, I'm really into you and I'm feel blessed
You see all my light and walk with my angels--
As well as, love all my dark and dance with my demons
You see darkness in my beauty yet you choose to stay
The way you look at me
Wink your bright eyes to me
I can feel you are smiling inside
I can feel your sincerity
I can feel that you are mad in love with me
Isn't that weird?
The way you are trying to get to know about me
The way you treating me like a baby
The way you shelter me with your all
The way you show your interest to listening to my music playlist
The way you entertain me with my silly text
The way you can't take your eyes off from me
It's kinda adorable for me
And..you are not a soft spoken person, but you are trying to be to
I know it is hard and I appreciated it, hunn.
It is already May
It's the month that we are apart
While we are still learning about each other
I hope you are doing well there
Without me
To be frank, I'm badly miss you
Your warm smell and comfort smile
Can I just call you and ask you to come over here just for grab some coffee?
Wouldn't you mind?
*sigh*
Hopefully one fine day, we will see each other again
And then my soul saw you and it kind of went "Oh, there you are. I've been looking for you"
And I know seeing you really got my adrenaline pumping
'Cause I crave for you, babe.
