If they make you work for their attentionfight for their affectionbeg for their love
realize
you will spend a lifetimeyearningwantingbeggingchasing
something that was never yoursand never be.
Note: Real love never makes anyone begging/chasing, moreover it never hurts the partner. if it makes one to beg, so there's no love.
It starts with late repliesthen less repliesthe distance becomes greaterand the talking becomes less frequent
Every time my phone lights upi hope it's him or at least, i wish it was him
So i start to care less about what he dobut fragments of him linger in my head
People changewhen their need changesbut i remember the times he was nice to meinstead of bitter memories
It's hard to accept itbut they've done their job in my lifeeveryone who walks in has purposeand when they accomplish that, they leave
I will not disheartenedfor with every person that walks out, someone better walk inbut the cycle will repeati'm going to have to learn how to be okay with it
semalam fet wasep nak pinjam baju kurungso aku bagiturn out arep datang merisik.
umi call, tanya aku okay ke?ikutkan hati aku taknak angkat call tu sebab da tau umi nak cakap pasal apabut since i have no one to talk. no one to care. no one to listen.so i answer the phone.
umi cakap jangan stress pasal fet, semoga kakak dipermudahkan jodohnya, dapat suami yg mampu bawak ke syurga. nak nangis but aku tahan je lah.
kenapa lah susah sangat hidup aku ni?aku bukan tak bersyukur tapi aku penat.kenapa aku rasa semua ni macam perlumbaan?aku penat la nak berlumba.
boleh tak aku tak nak balik rumah terus so aku tak perlu dengar pasal fet-akan-kawin-dan-bila-turn-akueven sekarang pun aku da fikir excuse apa aku nak bagi kat umi ayah so that aku tak payah balik rumah mak bila raya nant untuk hadap macik2 bawang kat sana.
aku penat otak aku penataku tak happy aku stressaku down
aku sakit bila orang pandang aku dengan pandangan pathetickorang takleh ke just fikir yang aku ni single lady tapi have a happy life?apa kalau kawin tu memang selamanya bahagia ke?apa single tu tak bahagia?what if kalau aku nak hidup sorang lama sikit dari korang. what's wrong with it?camtu ke korang ukur kebahagiaan someone? kawin + ada anak = bahagiatak kawin +takde anak = tak bahagia?apebende korang ni?
kau tak tau apa yg aku hadap, apa hati aku pena lalui.end up kau tanya bila nak kawin? kau tak tau ketakutan apa yg aku pendam tapi balik2 kau suruh aku kawin
once aku dah kawin, aku kena serah segalanya to that person, what if kalau that person akan sia sia kan aku?sekali pun aku taknak fikir yg dia tak deserve aku bila aku dah kawin dengan dia.
aku tak tau nak buat apa, dengan sape aku boleh salurkan kerusuhan aku ni.sebab aku tau nobody want to listen me.
